I wrote a speech on trust way back in my teens and it was really good. One of those things where you remember the essence of the thing but not the totality. This speech was like that. I remember how impactful and truthful it was. How it hit the audience. How many people talked to me about it afterwards, about how great it was and how truthful it was. Do you think I can remember the speech itself? Of course not. The only things I remember about it is that it was based on the notion that trust is a two way street and once broken it hurt both parties.
Duh. You say. Well this was a big thing for a fifteen year old to figure out. After years (and years and years) of experience, not so much. Yet it is surprising, at least for me, that the breaking of trust can still affect me so much.
There are so many things I will not put my trust in; the internet, politicians, big businesses, any ad that says “we are the best”… and so on. So when I do put my trust in someone it means a lot. And when that trust is broken it breaks me.
It shouldn’t. I know better. I know that if money is involved trust is a luxury, not a factor. Yet it hits me so hard when I find out that that my interests where not the main focus and that profit was the only consideration.
Even in my fifties I am still learning… that’s kinda cool. However, why am I taking so long to get over something I’ve known since I was fifteen?
